MIA for a while...

You know, sometimes life just seems like it cant fall apart any more or faster and you loose peices as you go. How do I cope without my best friend? My husband means the world to me, I pray he gets better soon. It hurts to see him hurt, I just want his pain to go away! I am so sad that he is going through PTSD its hurting him its hurting our family. I want him here with me, I miss him dearly, but you know what? He is SAFE he is not getting SHOT at! He is getting the help he needs! I will cope thinking about this very fact. I wont be scared, thinking is he going to make it? Will he ever come home to me? Will I get that knock on the door from a Marine telling me the bad news? This is not something I have not dealt with before I am worried about him because I know he is hurting but I am so greatful that he is alive! We will push through this, I will try my best to be strong but I can tell you now I just want to run! It wont get me anywhere but thats what I feel like doing!
Hmmm, mixed emotions much? Yup!
Honey I miss you and I love you so much, I WILL be here when you return just like always I am here for you!

My youngest babies...

I know I am a little obsessed with their pretty little faces :)

Such a handsome Zacky!

IT IS HARD TAKING PICS OF THIS LIL MAN LOL!! He is always runnin from me!!!

Zackery's pretty blue eyes :)

Gary Allen is doing better...

My sweet boy is doing better, he is eating and drinking much more now thank God! He still has terrible mood swings and his energy level is very low. He is going to try school tomorrow and we will see how that goes. It will probably take a while for his recovery his iron is still very low. Here are some new pictures I took recently. The pictures I took of Gary Allen where taken right before he got sick, his coloring looks so good in these pictures! He is so pale now :(